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So depressed.   The item on ebay with the right part number turns out to only be the visual part of the screen, and doesn't include the  touch screen glass!   Why would you use the same part number for two different things???

Unless someone knows where else I can get the parts, or has the same laptop that is dead for another reason (eg: dead motherboard etc), I need to raise almost double what I have already, as with the touch screen glass, they want  $300 :-(  which is sadly still cheeper than the $900 that HP wants! 

Here's the reply from the seller I asked just to be sure before spending the money:

Going to ask if they sell JUST the glass, but I rather doubt it, :-(

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Posted an update with thank yous and specifics about where I am right now on our farm site here:

I also added an amazon list for those that did not want to use PayPal or did not have ability to use it.  You can also PM me for a postal address if you happen to have the Wacom Pen (even if the nib is missing) etc.

I'm exhausted from working on that, despite breaks, so sorry sort post, and all thank yous are over there.  Gotta try to sleep now.

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i don't post about but a fraction of the offline crap we deal with, even back when i posted much much more often on LJ. Like last month, when our amazing service dog woke me up (a very difficult task) because Bugland was not breathing. like not at all, blue and cold lips. I think bug is right that i havent finished processing that one, and no doubt some other crisis will appear before i do.

Anyway, this crisis led to a problem i have to seek help on which I feel absolutely guilty for... trying to raise money or find someone who has the computer parts that would donate them, to fix my laptop and tablet, because when the emergancy workers showed up, they dumped this heavy box thing (i keep thinking it was a defibulator, but i dont know, maybr just supplies) on the table, right on top of my laptop, cracking the touch screen, and damaging the wacom tablets pen.

i've tried to get my online store and ebay back up and running, but between just being sickér than i was when i used to do that, and the damage to my laptop which prevents me from using it but in short bursts, Its going so ridiculously slow that i doubt i will have it up and running before the crack gets worse and the computer becomes unusable.

i wrote about this, in great length, on our non-fannish blog for our farm... its long because i always have a hard time writing about being unable to support ourselves, and bad shit happening, etc. basically, the accidental damage warrantee will not refund me enough to afford a laptop that meets my needs.  I can however buy the damaged parts online, such as ebay, and repair it myself... or if i can raise enough, spare my arthritic hands and  have a local repair shop do it.    The screen on ebay looks around $150 to 300.  Dunno what a repair shop would charge tfor the work.  Wacom tablet is fine (because the mouse works) but the pen is damaged, but that shouldnt be too much more.

I sent a link request to Copperbadge's Radio Free Monday and told him to go ahead and consolodate/rephease it. (i don't remember how to make user names into links, so  if anyone reading doesnt already follow his journal, i recommend it.  if you cant help us, maybe there's someone else you can, and i may feel slightly less guilty then about asking for help if it helps someone else).  Anyway, I think it is much clearer as he put it...

"[personal profile] alchemia is raising funds to replace equipment damaged when his spouse had a medical emergency and EMS workers dumped a heavy box of supplies on top of his laptop on the table. The laptop is not just a computer but also an assistive device for Alchemia, as well as a major social outlet; in addition, his Wacom tablet was damaged. You can read more and support the fundraiser in a number of ways here, including donating money but also sending used or purchased parts"

feel free to share the link, maybe i can make an extra 5 or 10 dollars on ad revenue... every bit helps!

For those in the Chicago area (esp far west suburbs) I also have backyard chickens hatched April 4 thru 14 for sale, and toys, both commercial and handmade, for pet rats hamsters gerbils, bords/parrots, cars, dogs etc...   oh, also got some gently used cages suitable for ferrets, rats, sugargliders and similar small pets.   if you want to buy and pick up these kind of things, thatd be much better than having postal costs and paypal and ebay fees that cut into profits. Message or email me for info on those things.

sorry for any typos... using the mini tablet and the tiny screen's tiny online keyboard is really hard to use without making typos.

For those that want to donate but not cluck thru all the links and rambling on in my blog, here's my paypal link:


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Noticed 16 ppl "like" him, but only 4 ppl "voted".... you MUST click the VOTE BUTTON- just "like" won't count! (Unless those people voted earlier and can't change it but wanted to say hi)

This entry was originally posted at Please comment there using OpenID.
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Noticed 16 ppl "like" him, but only 4 ppl "voted".... you MUST click the VOTE BUTTON- just "like" won't count! (Unless those people voted earlier and can't change it but wanted to say hi)
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This year has been so depressing.  Bug and I have desperately been trying to write but we've maybe done the equivalent of 1 chapter spread out over the year.  My pain dr won't do anything about the meds not helping b/c my pain is getting worse because a ton of physical work has been dumped on me in the past year.  Drs won't do anything about my worsening sleep problems either.  

We lost two of our cats, Toby and Susan, just a few months ago.  We've been having mounting problems with medical and dental issues.  I have panick attacks almost every day.  During the worst of them, bug tried to give me a hug and because I was rocking so hard (they were on/behind me and I was in a sort of fetal position) the movement ended up hurting their neck/back where they have spondelosis, exactly the thing I try to prevent them doing to themselves when they have a seizure. and they spend the rest of the day having to crawl everywhere because they couldn't feel their feet.  Bug desperately needs to see a dentist who can work on them w/o damaging their neck by tilting/turning it the wrong way or thy''ll loose their teeth soon (their meds dry their mouth making decay/gingivitis accelerate).  They also need to get rod put in their neck to stablise it from the spondelosis that started back in childhood and has been getting worse- the bones are crumbling.  I need two teeth worked on too or I'll loose them, but that is much less important than her tooth and neck problems.

Whenever i look at A Bittersweet Potion or other fanfic work, or see some post about how its supposedly discontinued I end up crying.   Ditto for any of my rat genetics articles.  I repeatedly fuck up paying the bills, getting things in late, sending the wrong amounts to the wrong companies (like switching the figures, dyslexic).  I am completely useless and if I wasn't terrified of what would happen to Bugland, and of screwing it up and ending up in a hospital i'd probably be ded already. 

My grandmother is dying; it's the 20th anniversary of my dad's death and  Last month we had a terrible emergancy with our Disability Service Dog Mickey and expected him to die. Mickey is named for my grandfather who also died less than a year before my father when I was in highschool.  Our regular vet would allow us to pay what we could over time, but they couldn't help him and we had to go to a specialty vet- who doesn't know us and won't do that for us.  Diagnosing him alone required multiple X-Rays., Ultrasounds, a Spinal tap and even a fucking MRI of his brain and spine!

The bills are already around $10,000 and will probably be double that by the time we are done, as he is on a shitload of pain meds and expensive antibiotics that he has to be on for months, plus check-up visits and more XRays and possibly another MRI to know when he is in the "clear"/"cured".  I used up what little savings we had, our credit cards are maxed out, my mum's are or soon will be, and other than me tam my mum and grandmother there's no other family to go to. 

We're supposed to have in-home help, but we've had help for over a month (long story, if you want to know about it, its in the link below.  So I'm doing twice the physical work load I am used to and on less pain meds b/c the dr's are either too scared of the FDA or dn't believe i hurt as much as I claim, esp given my age.  Ontop of that, I've been sick for the past 3 and a half weeks, despite being on antibiotics.  I feel like I have mono again even though I've been told you cant have it twice... I struggle to be awake more than 6 hrs a day... struggle more so that the 6hrs are during business hours so I can get things done.

This is the PLEA:

PLEASE if you can take just a couple minutes and click some buttons and ask your friends to.  You don't have to spend anything.  I need to keep the page telling our dog's story well-visitted enough (if it falls under a certain # visitors, they disable it) to keep ads on it which doesn't give me alot in revenu, but every little bit counts.  Make it your homepage to guarantee a hit a day?  Ask friends to?  That page is here:  Currently the ad is a banner at the bottom, but I will be experimenting with different sizes / numbers / placements. 

TIME SENSITIVE!!!  I know this is late, but with everything going on, and crying every time I tried to write or edit photos, i didn't get it done until now. ...  There is a pet costume contest on the Pet Supplies Plus page.  We usually go to the in store costume contests, but Mickey isn't allowed to go out due to the injuries!    Voting ends on the night of the 31st so if you have a facebook page, PLEASE vote for our dog and ask your FB friends to vote for him.    If we win, we'll get a gift certificate which will help us buy the pet food while we put all our $ towards the vet costs.

Here is the link to vote for him in the costume contest:  I know I fucked up getting him entered so late, but If enough people vote and enough people get their friends to vote, maybe we can at least get 3rd prize?  We have to try!

There are other options on the   page... a donation link if anyone wants to donate, even just $1, and I will be auctioning some of my artwork off on Ebay - I got photos taken i just need to write up the auctions now (first I need to go to the pharmacy and petstore though.... I will post again when I have the auctions up, or you can just bookmark and check back later.

Thank you everyone who helps in any way, even just visiting the page for ad revenue.

RIP susan

Jul. 20th, 2014 12:31 am
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RIP Susan, bugland's (and mine, but mostly bug's) little black cat. She was at least 20 (years, not lbs.   in lbs the most she ever got was a bit over 5 I believe).

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Need a recommendation for internet provider in chicagoland area, specifically dupage county.  bug's family ruined AT&T for us (after years of refusing contact, bug contacted them (after i pushed them too) out of desperation for help with a dental emergancy- they passed around the phone number and people called day and night despite her asking them not to, racking up a phone bill that was more than the initial dental cost bug asked help with >:(  (and of course that was just the 1st dental visit; bug needed several ore due to an aggressive infection that was threatening a bunch of teeth, and couldn't see just any ol'dentist thru the county's program due to the way bug's medical conditions interact with the anethasia and the tilting back of the head due to crumbing vertebrae from.... gosh i wonder what. >:(  So we ended up loosing the phone service we had, the internet service we had, and have creditors after us for the $500+ phone bill and the several thousand $ dental bill 

Sorry I'm rambling and ranting, grrr grrr grrr.  It was MY stupid idea, so it is really all my fault >:(

We Tried Comcast since my mother "loves it", but she has cable too and also always has enough $ in her bank account to just have her bills auto-deduct from it on time.  For us, it is too expensive for what quality is no better than what we got for half the price with AT&T, and with less leeway and  stiffer penelties for people like us who live 'hand-to-mouth' and are sometimes a couple days late due to illness or waiting to be payed (AT&T just charged us $5.95 late fee on our next bill and would disconnect if we were late a 2nd month in a row. I think that was reasonable.   Comcast hiked our bill up $15 and threatened disconnection when just 1 week late (1st time).  And they charge for the modem of course too- which I know I could provide myself, but when paying bills like this every month, I can't afford to buy the modem in the first place in order to get the discount on the bill... grrrr.  So I have to come up with $79-something in 2 days to stay online, and another $70-something that is also due very soon, but not in 2 days (the letter didn't say when)  so I need to find an alternative ASAP!

We need an ISP only- No phone, No Cable/TV, and reasonably priced! 

Going to cafe's for wifi is not an option, and there aren't any open signals strong enough near our house (and I don't have a wireless modem on my desktop anyhow).

(still haven't gotten around to pruning my reading/friends list, let alone actually reading it, so my apologies for ranting/dumping without at the least interacting....)
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I only NOW remembered (by seeing the msg in my inbox here) that I had signed up for Snarry-A-Thon and never even started the damn thing. Thank goodness it wasn't an exchange.  Still depressed/ashamed.

still haven't written to people I owe replies to, like a simple fucking thank you to the lawyer who helped us (free) deal with the county so we could keep out chickens/sheep, or my cousin who doing missionary work in vietnam and can't access facebook to talk to me there.  Still haven't replaced the doorknob on the bathroom door, or insert countless other chores i can't remember....

I got a new pain dr at a supposedly good pain clinic.  So far, the only good things about it are that 1. I got my fentynal raised from 50 to 75mcg, and 2. I got a TENs unit.  Otherwise, visits usually involve being lectured about things I already know and would be do if I could do it and/or if it actually worked for me.

Cracked another tooth- half came out, half stayed in.  Had to get it pulled.  Have to go get another cracked tooth looked at before the same happens to it too.

Bugland has been without a working computer/laptop/smartphone for months.  My mother finally offered to get them a tablet until I can rebuild a broken laptop someone gave us, soon as I find the $ to buy the parts for it.  Bug's still trying to figure out how the tablet works; it has Windows 8 and isn't as intuitive as one would hope; but a better choice for bug than anything apple, or android even.

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Our B&W tuxedo cat, Toby, (who, in combination with Scottie, a maincoon cat who died several year back, combined in part to give us an initial image of Harry!Cat) died the other day.  He is survived by: Susan the Cranky and Elderly, Cello the cow-spotted terror (She was also Toby's Dom), and MahJongg the hasn't been a kitten for years but we still think of her as one.
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Alchemia will never forget the day another customer at the petshop asked to pet his dog, Mikołaj, and Mikołaj then pee'd on her leg.
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My wife is nearly housebound due to MS and other illnesses; is on Medicaid/medicare. There is a service that sends DRs to the house. For the past several months, the Dr we have had has been verbally abusive, doesn't listen to her, demands her aide dog is not in the house, and even then, refuses to treat her. Her health has seriously deteriorated during this time. Does that count as "malpractice" or something else? The company they work for takes the side of the Drs. What legal recourses do we have? We are in Illinois.

ETA: We have asked for different drs and they claim to send them out but they never came. Or they came and so were very very very quiet that our dogs didn't even hear them to alert us (and they alert us to things we don't even hear at the other end of the block, so I doubt that).
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Ipad / apple people.... my uncle brought an IPad for my grandmother to watch mass when she is recovering from surgery.  But can't get the video to work.  Can anyone tell me why?  Page is here:  Click on the little film-strip image with the word "Transmisje" under it.   It should ask for a user login and password, use 5835 for both.

On my PC desktop, when I did it, I was prompted to install a plugin from Brickcom, and afterwards, the image/video came thru fine.  But when I was helping my uncle with the ipad, we got no such prompt... only a blank screen.  My *guess* is that he has plugins turned off or something, but I'm not sure where/how to check that, or if that is even the actual problem.

(I also tried to do a search for Brickcom Plugins but can't find a page to just manually install it from).


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Oh Fuck You PayPal!!!  Because I don't have enough $ to open an extra bank account to link to you, I can't activate my replacement Debit card even though I've been a PayPal user for over a decade?  Now, if anyone buys and pays for anything i sell online, I cannot use that money to pay any of my bills!!!  I even have money in paypal right now, and I have overdue Gas and Electric and Dr bills and Prescription co-pays, and no money in checking.  I was so glad to get my replacement debit card so I could Pay some of this stuff and Now I can't!   I can only use the money in my paypal now at online stores that accept paypal, and I don't have enough "wiggle room" every month to afford to buy such luxuries.  Fuck you you fucking fuckers for holding my $ hostage.  I wish I believed in a Hell so I could imagine all the ways you should be made to suffer there  >:(
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One of the most depressing things I've encountered recently was a review for ABP that described it as "abandoned".  Its not, although i understand why people would think so.

Bug and I talk about it often, and try writing in fits and spurts. 

Those that have followed us closest might remember we've been dealing with things like both of us having pain issues (joint disease for me, while Bug was diagnosed with MS a couple yrs ago).  So there's the stress and anxiety and depression with that.  About 2.5 yrs ago we moved to our first house we bought.

I know there is lot sof stuff between then and now, but to be honest, I can't remember.  Heck, if you asked me to list our stressors just inthe past month, I'd not remember half of them, let alone put them in chronological order.  Its just like before we have finished with stressor A, stressor B hits us.  We finally take care of A, only to have C hit us, before we are finished with B, and so on.

I'll have to write about the current shit we'll dealing with for anyone who is interested, but not now as i have to get to bed very soon and that needs to be flocked anyway.

Anyway, back to ABP...

For a while, I had been resolving to get the current book finished... and since is was so long since an update, i figured that since people would likely need to re-read to remember WTF was going on, I might aw well just make it one big update - like "update: book finished!"  yeah, that worked well, didn't it?  I mean, just give myself an impossibly big task, with no positive feedback as I went along, while life continues to throw shit at me... why i thought that was a good idea, again, i don't know.

So, new idea!

i'm going to go back to posting updates- even if just a few pages at a time.  I can't promise they will be regular, but I should actually make some progress instead of just falling into despair at my ongoing failure, and hopefully prevent any further encounters of "warning: abandoned fic". 

Book Gift!

Apr. 28th, 2013 03:34 am
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Thank you who ever sent me the Chicken Health Handbook! Awesome surprise and very useful.
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Bug's laptop is about to die.  Ive no idea how we're going to get a new one; but if we can manage to, we need something to accommodate her medical problems (MS & epilepsy).  The problem with her last one is that the case is *aluminum*.  Every time she'd have a seizure, or her arm would spasm when closing it/putting it away, it gets banged up.  Badly.  Its popping apart at almost all of the "seams", the screen is coming off from broken hinges, etc..   It's not about being careless, she can't control if/when she's going to have a seizure.   Insurance/warranties won't cover it (even if we paid extra for such a thing at Microcenter, its alot of extra money, for only 2 years of coverage and then, the computer will end up damaged again in a few months leaving us in this same situation).

The only thing i can think of, is that the laptop needs to be in a *steel* case.  But everything on the market seems to be Aluminum.

I've tried to search for steel cased latops (or just the case by itself, I would not mind building it and getting warrenties on the indivual parts as I did with my desk top- the service center at microcenter seems to give one much less hassle about replacements if they know you know what you are doing, instead of just an average joe they can talk into believing that it was their fault and thus not coverable)  But when I search for this, all I get is steel external cases (like a briefcase thing).  I think that might also work- but only if there was a way to A) keep the computer SECURLY inside even if it was knocked over while open and B) was well vented (Bug likes gaming and the computer gets VERY hot).  I'm more inclined to go with a an actual steel cased laptop though, if there is one on the market that is also suitable for gaming, or as a component to build it from scratch (I can't seem to find much online for building laptops... i know its harder than a desk top, but there's got to be some people that do it?)

Can anyone help/advise?

suggestions on how to magically come up with $800 would also be great, lol.

Bug is going to be SO depressed without a laptop - they're in bed almost all day every day :-(


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ONE DAY we will post fic again. 
But not today. 
Today, like most days, we continued to work on beating The Mirror of Maybe's update record while focusing  on not going bat-shit insane because we are surrounded by bat-shit insanity.  Like this....

Read more... )

Any guidance on how to make sure karma gets around to the substitute at-home doctor, the ER doctor and ER Nurse, and/or how to cope/get Bug's MS and Pain properly treated is most appreciated!

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this is expanded from the post here: Neighbour attacked our dog - need advice.

Questions about whether or not to file a report/press charges etc are in THAT post.

THIS post has only questions about dog behaviour. But the story details might still be useful for those answering the questions about reports/charges in the earlier post.

Read more... )
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I have the "short" version of the story here, and I will do the "long version" in the next post. I apologise the other one is so long, but I want to provide background, and the situation itself had a lot going on in it, and finally, i have lots of questions about it. I greatly appreciate reading this all and feedback (for those who can)

Short story:

While walking our dog, Mikołaj, tonight, a neighbour (at the opposite end of the block) physically assaulted him without provocation (our dog went passive and did not fight back).

Interfering with, let alone hitting, a service dog (or one in training as ours is), even when off duty, is a misdemenor in our state; intentionally causing injury to one is a felony.

I do not yet know if Mikołaj has injuries. We're keeping an eye on him and will take him to the vet on Monday (or earlier if he suddenly starts have symptoms of concern).

The only witness was the assailant's family member who I doubt will tell the truth (but who knows). Unless Mickey has internal injuries, we have no proof.

Do we:
  • Just avoid them (not too difficult)
  • File a Police Report and/or Press Charges
  • Go over there and tell them that if they do something like that again, we will press charges
  • Ditto, but instead of telling them, tell the woman that lives there if we can find out when she's around and the guys are not
  • Ditto, but tell them via a written letter.
  • Something Else

    Please note they have a Rottweiler Puppy. After this, I would suspect they treat her the same or worse. :-(

    However, I am also CONCERNED that if we do something, they will retaliate, and having a backyard full of chickens and sheep, which while legal, is a tad uncommon, might appear as an easy thing for them to target us by, either by filing false complaints with the county/animal control, or causing harm to them (eg: throwing poison over the fence etc).
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