This year has been so depressing. Bug and I have desperately been trying to write but we've maybe done the equivalent of 1 chapter spread out over the year. My pain dr won't do anything about the meds not helping b/c my pain is getting worse because a ton of physical work has been dumped on me in the past year. Drs won't do anything about my worsening sleep problems either.
We lost two of our cats, Toby and Susan, just a few months ago. We've been having mounting problems with medical and dental issues. I have panick attacks almost every day. During the worst of them, bug tried to give me a hug and because I was rocking so hard (they were on/behind me and I was in a sort of fetal position) the movement ended up hurting their neck/back where they have spondelosis, exactly the thing I try to prevent them doing to themselves when they have a seizure. and they spend the rest of the day having to crawl everywhere because they couldn't feel their feet. Bug desperately needs to see a dentist who can work on them w/o damaging their neck by tilting/turning it the wrong way or thy''ll loose their teeth soon (their meds dry their mouth making decay/gingivitis accelerate). They also need to get rod put in their neck to stablise it from the spondelosis that started back in childhood and has been getting worse- the bones are crumbling. I need two teeth worked on too or I'll loose them, but that is much less important than her tooth and neck problems.
Whenever i look at A Bittersweet Potion or other fanfic work, or see some post about how its supposedly discontinued I end up crying. Ditto for any of my rat genetics articles. I repeatedly fuck up paying the bills, getting things in late, sending the wrong amounts to the wrong companies (like switching the figures, dyslexic). I am completely useless and if I wasn't terrified of what would happen to Bugland, and of screwing it up and ending up in a hospital i'd probably be ded already.
My grandmother is dying; it's the 20th anniversary of my dad's death and Last month we had a terrible emergancy with our Disability Service Dog Mickey and expected him to die. Mickey is named for my grandfather who also died less than a year before my father when I was in highschool. Our regular vet would allow us to pay what we could over time, but they couldn't help him and we had to go to a specialty vet- who doesn't know us and won't do that for us. Diagnosing him alone required multiple X-Rays., Ultrasounds, a Spinal tap and even a fucking MRI of his brain and spine!
The bills are already around $10,000 and will probably be double that by the time we are done, as he is on a shitload of pain meds and expensive antibiotics that he has to be on for months, plus check-up visits and more XRays and possibly another MRI to know when he is in the "clear"/"cured". I used up what little savings we had, our credit cards are maxed out, my mum's are or soon will be, and other than me tam my mum and grandmother there's no other family to go to.
We're supposed to have in-home help, but we've had help for over a month (long story, if you want to know about it, its in the link below. So I'm doing twice the physical work load I am used to and on less pain meds b/c the dr's are either too scared of the FDA or dn't believe i hurt as much as I claim, esp given my age. Ontop of that, I've been sick for the past 3 and a half weeks, despite being on antibiotics. I feel like I have mono again even though I've been told you cant have it twice... I struggle to be awake more than 6 hrs a day... struggle more so that the 6hrs are during business hours so I can get things done.
This is the PLEA:
PLEASE if you can take just a couple minutes and click some buttons and ask your friends to. You don't have to spend anything. I need to keep the page telling our dog's story well-visitted enough (if it falls under a certain # visitors, they disable it) to keep ads on it which doesn't give me alot in revenu, but every little bit counts. Make it your homepage to guarantee a hit a day? Ask friends to? That page is here: http://rodentfancy.com/pets/help-for-
TIME SENSITIVE!!! I know this is late, but with everything going on, and crying every time I tried to write or edit photos, i didn't get it done until now. ... There is a pet costume contest on the Pet Supplies Plus page. We usually go to the in store costume contests, but Mickey isn't allowed to go out due to the injuries! Voting ends on the night of the 31st so if you have a facebook page, PLEASE vote for our dog and ask your FB friends to vote for him. If we win, we'll get a gift certificate which will help us buy the pet food while we put all our $ towards the vet costs.
Here is the link to vote for him in the costume contest: http://bit.ly/1pQKMIs I know I fucked up getting him entered so late, but If enough people vote and enough people get their friends to vote, maybe we can at least get 3rd prize? We have to try!
There are other options on the http://rodentfancy.com/pets/help-for-
Thank you everyone who helps in any way, even just visiting the page for ad revenue.